paranoia

disappointment can come in many flavours.

tomorrow is my "speshul" day. it, and the money issues, and a snarky letter, are the price i pay for spending new years' in the south. it's really hard to tell who is on your side sometimes. system-loving bastards. and breathe.

i may go skiing, if the weather permits. i hope it permits. i will take nalu with me... she'll love it! i think she's lonely a bit since fiona's being mama most of the time.

i've been eating a lot of bacon. i like bacon, but i'm eating it because i like to pour the bacon grease onto the dogs' food. i'm so whipped! i'm eating saturated pig fat on a regular basis so my doggies can enjoy bacon drippings on their food. there oughta be a law...

i love getting care packages. i mean, who doesn't? i think people should send care packages more often, and not just to me. i should be sending care packages down, people should be sending them laterally across the country. my sister just sent me one, and it included melatonin. i don't know if you guys have heard of this stuff, but it is supposed to help you sleep. i hope it works, because i feel like i've been perching on the edge of sleep instead of sleeping deeply. it's really unusual for me, the human log.

yeah. twilight world i am living in. i am homesick today. i want to get lost in a crowd of strangers, and then bump into an old friend. instead i am seeing acquaintances everywhere, but no friends.