trapdoor

BE AGGRESSIVE!

Aggressive cheerfulness is the order of the day (the year?) around here. It almost feels like if i want to have a good day, i have to rip it out of the teeth of my circmstances. i do seem to be getting the knack of faking cheerfulness.

i was awakened last night by pain in my legs. that has never happened to me before. it wasn't a throbbing or a sharp pain, more like that dull pain you get from sitting too long in a position. my legs felt like they were buzzing and sore. i got up an walked around for a few minutes and that helped some, but i was so sleepy i kept bumping into things. so i tried lying back in my bed and stretching a bit and sort of kneading the muscles to see if that would help. it must have, because i don't remember falling asleep again. it was just so weird.

only one week until i have my visit to the south. i am uber excited. i have been craving fast food in a sick way. i plan to indulge myself. i expect it will only take a few fast-meals before i am able to extinguish that craving. if you don't eat fast "food" for a long time, it tends to make you pretty sick when you do eat it.

i had a funny moment today as i was leaving school. someone cracked a comment, by accident, that hit the nail of a certain situation square on the head. i was so astonished, i looked to the other people implicated in the comment to see if they had spilled beans, but they hadn't. happily, the comment itself was so outrageous, my shock probably didn't seem out of line. life's funny like that.