my legs are buzzing

so tired... legs are numb with fatigue..

i think i might have to give up the daily posts until something interesting happens. things are pretty flat and boring. i'm not even reading. i watched star wars, episode 3 after school today. it was so tragic watching anickin fall...

something is shifting inside me, preparing for my next phase. i can sense it.

ok, here's something interesting from the maze of my neurons: when something is crappy, and we really shouldn't have to deal with that particular sort of crappiness, what is the best response? is it better to say, No, this isn't right. I shouldn't have to put up with this! and then expect the situation to change, OR is it better to admit that it shouldn't be that way, but accept that it is that way, and then go ahead and deal with it?

Is accepting that bad behaviour happens tantamount to tolerating the bad behaviour, or is the acceptance a harm-reduction model for dealing with crap? maybe if i could swallow the notion that into every life a load of crap must fall, i could take a deep breath and relax in my work.

and if that's the case, then what about the idea of people meeting your expectations? if you expect someone to be rude and obnoxious (for example) do they not often perceive your expectations and deliver accordingly?