fire island

the things that used to interest me don't interest me anymore. i'm still excited to go camping soon, and that's great. but everything else is boooooring. people here are boring. i need to meet some new people.

so i got food mail today, and for the first time, nothing was frost-bitten. all my fruits and veggies survived wonderfully. i ordered some grapes and a couple of cantaloupes. yup, i have great melons. :D (that was for you! hahaha). even my ice cream stayed frozen. this is going to be fantastically healthy food week... lots of salads and fruit. i know at least one person out there finds my cravings for greek salad more than a little bizarre, but chips and candy don't do much for me. they are boredom foods for me, as opposed to real cravings.

i find this kind of boredom daunting. it's so pervasive and tenacious. it's a mindset that sucks enjoyment out of things that i like most of the time. typically i like to read, watch movies, hang out with the dogs and people, cook, whatever... and now i'd rather just go to sleep. i'm craving excitement... something to shake things up. i keep hoping that i'll wake up in the morning excited about the day, but even when i do that, i find the excitement runs out sometime in the afternoon.